I have gotten into my 30s and it feels like all I've done since then is regret every single decision that led me here. I had opportunities to travel the world that I didnt take, opportunities to get my license that my short sightedness stopped me from getting, so much time wasted on fear, on worrying, on hatred, on self loathing that many years passed me by and I was still standing on the same place I was at 21 at 30. It hurt but I know I'm not the same person, though I didnt travel the world, I got to heal. To learn to love myself, to learn tk forgive myself and the childhood that brought so much trauma and anxiety. I found peace, joy, laughter... I found myself
I do struggle to relax sometimes, and my issue isn't with the loss of time but the unease and frustration when things stagnate or when progress is slowed down by unforeseen life circumstances. The fear that comes with the thought of never being able to fulfill my own potential is what creates the sense of urgency in me and makes me not want to rest and just go full throttle 24/7 so that I can make bigger strides. But then I become drained and exhausted and get reminded that I'm a human being that needs rest to function and time to clear my head and essentially recalibrate....
this resonated with me. i personally have measured my worth by how much i’ve achieved and always tried to push myself to become the “best version” of what i can be. but recently i’ve been feeling like that “best version” of myself was really an amalgamation of societal and familial expectations. so recently i’ve been asking: who do i really want to become? and how can i make peace with the fact that life is not going the way i expected right now and does feel a little stagnant sometimes?
Totally and time does seem to slow or stop when we are either uncertain or about to walk a brand-new pathway. As far as finding the best version of you I think that when we are at a crossroads and have been put through adversity or have experienced a kind of cleansing loss the we start getting a clearer picture or idea of what our ideal version actually looks like and THEN we can start to use the character creator, adjust the attributes, unlock / develop the special abilities, and customize to what fits us the best.
"We live in this endless loop now where summer feels like winter feels like spring because we’ve flattened everything into sameness. we forget that time has a rhythm" - THIS. Once we grow up, we enter into corporate environments, offices with fluorescent lights, screens galore and the consequence of similar four walls of given meeting rooms, our souls chip away. We lost the rhythm that we had - in many ways - not outgrown. We're battling our biology.
This entire piece is a beautiful reminder of how to take a step back, especially seeing "failures" as "part of becoming." Life is harsh, uncertain and at times unforgiving, but it is filled with so small wonderful moments... reading this was one!
an absolute beautiful piece. really needed this reminder 🤍
This is so comforting ☺️
I have gotten into my 30s and it feels like all I've done since then is regret every single decision that led me here. I had opportunities to travel the world that I didnt take, opportunities to get my license that my short sightedness stopped me from getting, so much time wasted on fear, on worrying, on hatred, on self loathing that many years passed me by and I was still standing on the same place I was at 21 at 30. It hurt but I know I'm not the same person, though I didnt travel the world, I got to heal. To learn to love myself, to learn tk forgive myself and the childhood that brought so much trauma and anxiety. I found peace, joy, laughter... I found myself
this was so comforting as someone who has been so anxious lately because time never seemed enough. thank you 🤍
Wow, spot on! Thank you for writing this piece.
I do struggle to relax sometimes, and my issue isn't with the loss of time but the unease and frustration when things stagnate or when progress is slowed down by unforeseen life circumstances. The fear that comes with the thought of never being able to fulfill my own potential is what creates the sense of urgency in me and makes me not want to rest and just go full throttle 24/7 so that I can make bigger strides. But then I become drained and exhausted and get reminded that I'm a human being that needs rest to function and time to clear my head and essentially recalibrate....
this resonated with me. i personally have measured my worth by how much i’ve achieved and always tried to push myself to become the “best version” of what i can be. but recently i’ve been feeling like that “best version” of myself was really an amalgamation of societal and familial expectations. so recently i’ve been asking: who do i really want to become? and how can i make peace with the fact that life is not going the way i expected right now and does feel a little stagnant sometimes?
Totally and time does seem to slow or stop when we are either uncertain or about to walk a brand-new pathway. As far as finding the best version of you I think that when we are at a crossroads and have been put through adversity or have experienced a kind of cleansing loss the we start getting a clearer picture or idea of what our ideal version actually looks like and THEN we can start to use the character creator, adjust the attributes, unlock / develop the special abilities, and customize to what fits us the best.
Thank you for this reminder 🙏🏾💝
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Such a comforting read. Thank you!
This feels like a warm hug.
"We live in this endless loop now where summer feels like winter feels like spring because we’ve flattened everything into sameness. we forget that time has a rhythm" - THIS. Once we grow up, we enter into corporate environments, offices with fluorescent lights, screens galore and the consequence of similar four walls of given meeting rooms, our souls chip away. We lost the rhythm that we had - in many ways - not outgrown. We're battling our biology.
This entire piece is a beautiful reminder of how to take a step back, especially seeing "failures" as "part of becoming." Life is harsh, uncertain and at times unforgiving, but it is filled with so small wonderful moments... reading this was one!
Yet another permission slip to slow down. Thank you
This is beautiful, and I needed it so much! Thank you!
Thank you for this, I feel so seen ✨
I really appreciate this post, it helps gives perspective and encourages you to be present. 😌
Excellent reminders to be present. Progress over perfection! Thank you.